mc-ed

semalam, dpt mc. ekoran dari batuk yg haiper teruk d nite before.
sementelaah dpt mc tu, i followed mami to see dentist. tak semena-mena, i did my scaling, plus ada tampal 2 minor lobang di bahagian atas. kena la rm140. claim claim..jgn tak claim. sempat lagi ni..

tak cukup dgn itu, mami mengajak sesi facial pulak..jom ajelah mami! ended up, balik umah 330pm camtu. balik, mkn, makan obat. kiokkk. tdo~ drug yg lalok..

i'm wondering, kenapakah antibodi i lately ni..mcm tak brape umpphh lah org kata. sket2 sakit. sakit. i noticed this since asik nak sneeze di pagi hari, dlm 3 months ago. n fyi, i yg keji ni mmg pantang saket sket. ayuh bergegas ke klinik favorita (yg akan konpem bg MC). i should start taking supplement food balik la kot. double-x perhaps?

today, i reached ofis ngam2 830, after sending timah to lrt. i had list of customers to be visited today! wohoo. 5 in total (mutiara dsara, balakong, jln klang lama, glenmarie to be specific la) and all of them are scattered! luckily, sampai2 opis, sempat nak mai-secawannn dolu. had teh-o-limau, nasi lemak, cucur udang. byk kan.. tgh mkn, rapidkl call. dia nak postpone to next week. yeah! save 1 visit. lamsoon pon email nak postpone next week. save lagi 1. so im down to 3 visits. 1145am, rombongan cik kiah bermula la kan.. panas! by 330pm camtu, dah sampai opis balik. solat n kepala trus tunduk siapkan business plan 2009, reports, replying mails and sending orders. settled by 510pm. solat dulu b4 balik. ada plak lagi discussion 530pm camtuh. huhu..6pm baru gerak. fuhhh.. sampai umah, baca buku sket, maghrib, then ttdo. penat..

now, tgh carik mood nak tgk series. adios!

palate

akibat makan sizzling mlm tadi, lelangit saya luka.

lantas berkata, 'alamak! lelangit aku sakit la..'.
disambut, 'ape lelangit dlm english?'
mcm2 jawapan terpacul.
saya dgn sengalnya menjawab.. 'the sky'
ape jadah..

tapi ini lah hasil google saya..

its hard/soft palate..

lesson to learn. tu la, sapa yang tanak amik medic dulu. hosh..

haiper-aktif

things had been pretty hectic in the office. today, had a FUN discussion. discussed specifically about business plan 2009. brainstorming session la konon.. entah kenapa, i over reacted to 1 of d topics. mcm2 idea inovatif yg kluar. sampai la my boss, 'shida, apsal arini idea2 u bernas2. u simpan sampai u nak chow from here eh?' ha..mcm2 term la kuar.. salem, breakaway la, sivaji d boss la, momento la.. fyi, this year, saya dpt boss yg sporting. sporting here meaning.. dia tak penah tanya nape ko lambat dtg ke, ilang ke, MIA ke..as long as your keje delivered, ON TIME. dia mmg sempoi. plus, last week, dia ada panggil saya semata2 nak btau dat dia ada candidates to take over my place + portfolio. i know ini takde kena mngena dgn saya, but dia suh aku call org2 itu, n ala2 probe. tgk org tu ok ke tak. i feel honoured, u know!

kesakitan batuk saya, masih belum baik. masih batuk terKONG-KONG kat opis tu..oh, tidak kira dimana ye sebenanye. too bad. esok, saya akan pergi doktor!

baru balik dinner di uptown bersama2 rakan2 teves (except adat..sob..sob..sob..) si tanjung nak makan westerrrnn.. sbelum makan, singgah di cimb, saya nak bank in cek. ada sorang jejaka yg sangat dicurigai gerak-gerinya. bdak2 ni takut saya kena bom dlm bank tu je.. (korang, aku tau korang syg aku..uhukk). sepanjang2 perjalanan pergi dan balik, mcm2 lawak yg spontan terpacul dari mulut saya. antaranya..taktik utk melayakkan diri dapat SPBT (tau tak ape tu? skim pinjaman buku teks..hahhahah! tah mane dtg idea tu..). di kala nak balik tu, tiba pulak si farid kamil bersama rakan2. mau makan nasi ayam berlado barangkali. kjadian haiper ni, mungkin kerana overdose kafein nescafe.. (had 3 cawan arini..mai secawannnn!!!) but, i've been very hyper lately.. wonder why..

byk je sebenanye nak update, tapi sbb terlalu byk nak tulis, byk jugakla yg tak tertulis. so lupakanlah.

dah la. esok pagi nak pegi klinik, pastu ada apoiment dgn 3 customer starting 10am.

hardtime

statusku di ym mlm td. dats wat I feel now.behind d happy me(im hapi being shida),ada rasa resah sbenanye.huhu..drama! takdela. idea itu dtg kerana lately I've encountered beberapa situaso yang agak hard yg dialami oleh org2 tdekat. sungguh cliché eh perkataan 'hardtime' tu. malah ada beberapa rakan di ym yang prihatin yang pm bertanyakan kabar. terima kasih. appreciate dat. i know u luv me. hehe..

aku tringat lagu hard knck life. tau? lagu itu dibawa oeh Jayz. takde kena ngena pon.

pada hakikatnya, aku sgt serabut dgn beberapa perkara, terumtamanya keje=bos dan hati=perasaan.

sori. emosiku kurang stabil.

i need MSG.

kekasih gelap

hari ini
aku sedar
selama ini, aku mempunyai kekasih gelap.

kenapa aku tidak bangun
bangun untuk lihat
betapa kelihatan sungguh tanda
tanda yang kau wujud selama ini
tanda yang kau pujaku
sungguh tinggi

sumpah, aku tak sedar
walau ada unggas dikeliling berbisik
aku tak percaya

satu hari
kau bertanya
aku tiada jawapan
sunyi seribu bahasa

maaf
waktu itu
aku sibuk mengejar
cuba menggapai pelangi yang indah
pelangi yang ku sangka akan menampakkan matahari

sejak itu
kau biarkan aku mencari
keseorangan
mencari pelangi yang tak pasti

oh, sungguh indah
indah jika bersamamu

kini,
aku cuba mencarimu
mencari kau yang juga tak pasti
tapi kau kini jauh
jauh dari gapaian ku

kisah piano

I was sitting near watsons.ada a booth ni selling greaaaat pianos.n there is a girl(i believe d salesgirl la..),playing gud numbers of songs.arghh..tringat zaman2 aku main piano.pada aku, ada 1 feeling ni kalau main piano. berhantu. entah. mcm tenang kot.ohh tidak tepat. sbenanye,bole express yr feelings thru it. kalau geram ke,happy ke,sedih ke,anxious ke.tapi depends on d song. kalau xde feeling ni, tak kira la lagu ape main pon, dia kosong. like makan nasi ayam, takde nasik. hosh! to me, u can know if d pianist tu ada feeling ke tak. wahhh i AM enjoying d rhythm, even xde penyanyi pn. lalalalalaaa...

I wish I could replace d exisiting piano yg rosak dt I have kat umh tu. Of kos mahal kan..dulu pnah brangan nk ganti piano baru.bribannn harga dia.wat a wish..

uhu! tringat pula zaman kecik2, sewaktu berumur 4 tahun, dipaksa utk ke kelas piano. aku menangis, menghentak kaki kerana ditinggalkan mami. sehingga akhirnya cikgu piano dikerah utk datang mengajar di rumah lah. dan semasa itu, dadiku terpaksa membelikanku piano. terima kasih dadi! itulah piano pertama ku. kawai brandnye. dan episod piano ini berakhir semasa aku darjah 4, kerana tiada masa utk kelas piano. pagi ada sekolah agama, petang sekolah kebangsaan. aku berjaya ke grade 4.

*kejadianmelayan melodi piano ini terjadi mase tgh tunggu jaja di jusco equin. setelah objek itu tiba, kami terus bergegas ke kopitiam utk hor fun yang nyam nyam..

openhaus lalalala..

tanggal 18oct,dlm pukul 5pm onwards, rumah aku ada buat ala2 makan2 la. i invited small bunch of frens. it is intentionally for my dad's frens. so tumpang sekali la, alang2. dgn keadaan yg bz tu, tak sempat la nak capture gamba kan. so i mengerah rakan2 yg ada amik gamba during d session tu, pls, forward them to me. thanks in advance! =)

happy faces..

the food galore..

to those yg uninvited, im soooo sorry. tak sengaja. claim tau! for next year.. so u can be 1 of them yg dtg..teee heee..

meet uncle hussain

aku suka lagu ini. sungguh indah kata-kata lagu. tak mengapa. lirik yang indah bergabung dengan melodi yang kena.

Masa..Memaksa kita. Berpisah bagi sementara. Tak pernah ku pinta

Ada..Kalanya.. Kita mampu merencana. Takdir yang terlaksana

Satu hati di hujung langit. Satu..itu sepuluh. Sejauh bima sakti. Kita yakin kembali

Tinggal..Tinggal lah oh pari-pari. Usah kau bersedih hati. Ku percaya akan mu..

Tinggal..Tinggal lah oh pari-pari. Usah kau bersedih hati.Ku akan kembali..

Seksa..Tersiksa batinnya. Usah lagi kau titiskan air mata. Hati ku terseksa jua..

Penantian..Benar-benar menyiksakan.Jika ini satu rintangan. Harus kita teruskan..

i write part 1

where am i
i can't locate myself
i want to grab you
but you're too far
i can't
can't get hold of you
but i want it
wanted to be with you
dying
dying inside
i find myself
left somewhere dark
somewhere that no one will find me

entah

its time to move on
i dun want
dun wanna walk in your shadow
u left me bleeding
release me

i was trying
trying hard to attract you
in so very many ways
but still
still walking in your shadow

i need somewhere to hide..

tagged! by wawerq

Tagged by Wawerq (http://wawerq.blog.friendster.com/)

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time : 10.23pm
Name : nor shahida, shahida, shida, yong, nor, cda, shidot, cdot, hahee Sisters : 1 younger
Brothers : 1 younger
Shoe size : 6/7
Height : 5′4
Where do you live : kajang

Have you ever been on a plane : Yep
Swam in the ocean : Yep
Fallen asleep at school : ada..
Broken someone’s heart : ada i guess. maafkanku okeh!
Fell off your chair : ada..kot. cant recall

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : penah kat skolah. mami call back public phone. mami je ke?

Saved e-mails : of kos, esp official emails
What is your room like : agak kemas..

What’s right beside you: pile of cds, dvds

What is the last thing you ate : nasi, sadin, ikan goreng garing n sup sayur..
Ever had…
Chicken pox : ada. mase primary school
Sore throat : ada..MC!
Stitches : ada. earliest when i was 5 years old! notti haa..
Broken nose : no
Do you Believe in love at first sight : sometimes
Like picnics : i like beaches

Who was/were…
The last person you danced with : mami, masa cuci lantai dapor
Last made you smile : gelagat Ezyan Hani + niki You last yelled at : alone, in car (release stress kunun..)

Today did you…
Talk to someone you like : yep
Kissed anyone : tokcik, mami, hani, niki
Get sick : pagi tadi. cirits brits..
Talk to an ex : no
Miss someone : sgt sgt..
Who do you really hate: takde

Do you like your hand-writing : not bad sometimes. mis shool days..

Are your toe nails painted : tak

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : my bed is d best!
What color shirt are you wearing now : cream
Are you a friendly person : not really
Do you have any pets : ada! niki, cici, miki, choki
Do you sleep with the TV on : jarang berlaku
What are you doing right now : doing this tag thingie
Can you handle the truth : samtimes, truth hurts kan..

Are you closer to your mother or father : mami of kos..

Do you eat healthy : i guess
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : throw out edi
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : hug my mom. be alone.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : depends
Are you confident : depends

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1) fivers at setunfa. kunun2 paling senior, bole buli.. 2)basketball
3) kadet.
4) spm
5) jalan2 after spm

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) setel hutang piutang, loans watsoever yg berkaitan dgn bank
2) bring famili to haj / umrah
3) travel
4) set aside money that makes money eg business, investment, saving ka..
5) charity

5 of my bad habits
1) lazy
2) procrastinate
3) mandom
4) tak suka pegi keje awal

5) demotivated by external factors (kadang2 la..)

5 places I’ve lived/living
1) ipoh
2) kajang
3) johor bahru
4) melaka (bkt bruang to b specific)
5) pj (ofis can consider haa?)

5 people I tag
1) jaja hasliza
2) zahirah manis
3) ainunnazli
4) fadd
5) duno who laa.

time : 10.51pm

reading

i got this during d blog hopping session..

This maybe a good read for you to prepare yourself of being a "matured women"…

Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.
Matured women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits.

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Matured women know that if he’s truly hers, he doesn’t need controlling.

Girls check you for not calling them.
Matured women are too busy to realize you hadn’t.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Matured women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Matured women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Matured women make you want to come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty or good enough for their man.
Matured women know that they are pretty or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all their man’s time (i.e. don’t want him hanging with his friends).
Matured women realize that a lil’ bit of space makes the ‘together time’ even
more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends!

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Matured women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and ‘tell’ their man so.
Matured women ’show’ him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his ‘manhood’.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Matured women know that, that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all ’signs’.
Matured women know that sometimes the one you love, don’t always love you back and move on, without bitterness.

Lastly…

Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Matured women will read this and pass it on to other Matured women and their male
friends.

behind love, there is hate
behind happy, there are tears..

there are lies behind the truth

there are dreams
there are hopes
just hold on to them..

time will tell

love

i just came back from hari rayaing at pakwe's (dun get me wrong! its pak tua's) house in klana jaya. had char kuey teow n gud coffee.. then, to kinrara, pak ngah's house, where we met sazri (my couz). he's 25. ohh..he is sooo like-will-not-have-a-gf type before, not until we met his chinese gf, sherlene. so polite, soft-soft type, sooo girly la. sweet2 looking, with brains too. amik medic ok..i guess dats y sazri madly in lef wit this girl kan.

n you know, my dad la kan, bile dia borak2 dgn this girl..wat i noticed is that pak sahlan ni, bile dah start berkata2, dah ala2 consultant. to be exact. my dad is very good when it comes to talk about life. i guess what he had gone through, taught him a lot. being 'sebatang kara' (like mak ngah described him), most of his achievements,come from his inner motivation. not being pushed or inspired by his famili. ye la, dia dibela oleh ibu angkat selepas ibu sebenar tidak mahu membela anaknya, n at dat time, ibu sebenar seperated with ayah sebenar. he's the only child of the couple. ibu angkat pula, adalah buta huruf. purely org kampung, yang menyara hidup anak2 angkatnya dgn menjual nanas, ubi dan tanaman2 lain. bayangkan ayahku minum air pili, makan roti subsidi di sekolah, jalan kaki ke sekolah berbatu-batu jauhnya..oh, kalau nak diceritakan kisah kehidupan beliau, byk sgt. all i got to know from d late ibu angkatnya. she passed away when i was still in primary school. itu adalah moment paling sedih utk ayah aku. dah la..enuf about dat. all in all, aku respek ayah aku..no matter wat. I LOVE U!!

back to topic.

on the way to customer's place this afternoon, i draft myself d farewell speech. poyo kan?? mcmla ada org nak buat farewell utk aku..

btw, fyi, aku tpaksa tak pegi futsal tadi sbb i was forced to drive. pegi raya babes!

tagged! by jaja

jaja, thanks for letting me know that this tagged thingie is a manually done. i tot ada system. so naive! knowing me, if possible, let the system run the show la kan..tak kosser nak buat manual ni.

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
family & friends...

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
detox tea. paid half onli ma..

3) Where do you wish to get married?
rumah ibu bapa

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
till death do us apart.. (teehheee..)

5) Are you in love?
yes i am

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
mmm...xingat..tp zil belikan Sudoku book... :)

8)What is your full name?
tak perlu nak taip sini kan..

9) Do you prefer your mother or father
ditelan mati mak, diluah mati bapak

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time
anuar ibrahim

11) Christina or Britney?
britney

12) Do you do your own laundry?
depends

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
bali? bora-bora island?

14) Hugs or kisses?
i prefer hugs

15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
cool, ceria,dulu happy go laki (opsss), motivated, concentration..concerntration now begin..

16)8 things I am passionate about:
sing, futsal, tido, FRENS!, prison break!, gossip girl, fast, multitask

17)8 things I say too often:
a. kalau dlm presentation..for instance
b. ye..
c. Hi!
d. beb/dud
e. ha..
f. insyaAllah
g. ok
h. demit

18)4 books I’ve read recently:
a. personal money (kire buku ke?)
b. mymassa
c. richard branson - screw it, lets do it
d. shopaholic's

19)8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
a. currently tercipta untukku-ungu feat rossa
b. ari lasso + bcl : aku dan dirimu
c. i live my life for you-lifehouse
d. time of your life - david cook
e. lucky - jason mraz, colby
f. no air - jordin sparks, chris brown
g. drops of jupiter -train
h.bonjovi's

20)8 things I learned last year:
a. byk
b. sangat
c. sampai
d. tak
e.tertulis
f. tapi
g.alhamdulillah
h. handleable

8 people that I love to tag -
a. ainun
b. kemm/riki
c. jaja zahirah
d. fadd
e. dinna
f. ayyub
g. shafik
h. sape2 yg rajin..

tercipta untukku-ungu

i am listening to the above song like thousands of times. repeat2 version. same la dgn kaset yg timah dpt dulu tu. but dis is slow number, yang featuring rossa. dgr punya dengar lagu ni, aku bole nangis.. touch to d heart..

ape la cda! cembeng!

tapi aku ni mmg sensitip sket. kdg2 tewas..antaranye bende2 mcm ni la..

ni ada satu citer. i am soo into 'you're my everything' by Santa Esmeralda. long time ago, i really2 hope that someone will dedicate this song to me..

tadaa!

wish come true!

somewhere around 2 yrs back, there is one someone who dedicated ME this song. n mind u, i straightaway cried! just because of my wish come true. amiiin. fyi, that someone is now near to my heart. thanks.

reminiscing

have u ever heard of 'bujal'? its a comic that i used to read when i was small. along with dat, ada la majalah dewan pelajar., kuntum, buku cerita tidurlah sayang, nancy drew, ape lagi, tak bleh nk recall now..

bujal adalah komik yg agak mngarut. dgn main karakternya yg pakai songkok senget..agak menghiburkan la, walaupun agak lame lawak2 nye..

i am actually bosan. agaknya sbb sedang menunggu hari2 berlalu utk kerja baru. im thrilled! not because of keje baru, but im looking forward to 'officially unemployed' status. aaahh naaa..i'm not entitled pon, sbb dah dpt surat utk report duty. hahah! im thrilled more utk behenti keje (as i haf a lot in mind to do) than to keje baru (new ppl, new boss, all new to me lah!)

mlm tadi, after buka pose, we went to rumah tok andak kat bangi. dulu dia adalah prof sejarah tersohor di upm (upm ke ukm eh?). servis dia masih disambung walaupun umur dah menjangkau 65. so mlm tadi adalah mlm pembelajaran sejarah la. kisah2 cape town, tanjung harapan arakian panjang la perbualan sehingga aku menguap beberapa kali di depan meja kuih raya. nasib baik tak tersembul muka aku kat kuih2 tu.. hahah! buat malu je. end up, kami bergerak balik umah 12am camtuh. dlm keta, toksah ckp la,mmg dah tbaring kat blkg la kan.. bile i dah ngantuk, mmg takleh tolong..

cikunya

i am not sure of the spelling, but ramai sedara di johor menghidap penyakit ini semasa ramadhan n raya baru2 ini, incl tok johan, menantu dia, tok busu sipah. ksiann tgk derang.. dah la tua, mengenai plak cikunya ni.. semakin lemah la derang. i tried to google abt cikunya ni, but maybe im getting the wrong spelling ka apa..so takde ape la. most of them are experiencing lemah sendi2, rasa sejuk, n even ada yg mcm lepa.. na'uzubillah.

as far as i know, takde cure for this cikunya. injection je. how these old ppl can stand for injections? i bet tok-tok sedara aku takmo kena inject2 ni.. n further, cikunya akan amik masa lama utk cure. 6 bulan rasanye..

aku doakan derang sembuh segera..amiiin..

i will post my raya activities in the next2 entry. bes tau!

superwoman

it is RAYA my fren!

sempena dgn ini, saya ingin mengambil kesempatan utk mengucapkan salam aidilfitri

di sini juga, saya ingin menyusun 10 jari memohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya ada salah dan silap, terkasar bahasa, terlajak kata, badan binasa (ini sudah melalut..). apa2 pon, maaf lahir dan batin.

earlier this morning, my mom was complaining to me dat i cant do multitasking in the kitchen. we have few tasks to be settled and im supposed to help her la kan.. ala, things like kemas dapur sket2, cuci ayam & daging, siap2 bawang n stuffs utk rendang, bake cakes n etc. i pon ada mengomel sket that it is gud enuf for me to tolong rather than just relax2, so ending up, aku berdiri dari 10am hingga ke 330pm camtuh. now i know, how strong she handled the kitchen chores during my absence. sori mami! lef u SO MUCHHH!

just imagine, mase i kcik, my mom is a working bee. i was sent to an 'embah' to take care of me during daytime la. before she send me, she managed to prepare the cookings for me, and also for d 'embah', meaning mungkin lauk tengahari or kuih ke. hebat kan? dia ada masa utk buat2 smua tu, n yet she performed in her office. after ofis, dia akan jemput me n entertain me la. my mom luvs cooking. so most of d time, she will cook, no matter wat. so there, plus plus point to my mom! she's a great multitasker i would say.. contoh paling ideal, she managed to complete cooking for iftar by azan time, tapi start cooking at 640pm camtuh (exclude la masak nasik kan..). bukan lauk cincai..lauk yg hebats ok. woww! i am mengagumi my mom, n i wish i can be samone like her. if not exactly, dekat2 pon jadi la.. n i wish 1 day, my children akan mengagumi mak dia juga (awww!<--- i know this is cheesyyy!).

tadi, dlm 12am, cra, shah, nabila n me went to jalan tar. wohooo, ramai gile org ok! tak tido2 derang. my main objektif is to buy tudung murah2, n berjaya tangkap 1! then ada try2 kebaya nyonya, tapi mostly derang dah abes size S (oo..im wearing size s skrang..). too bad. so not catch la. murah tau! kbaya nyonya + tube + kain = rm100 or kbaya nyonya + pareo = rm139. takde rezki. then, ujan turun dgn lebatsnya!! so we end up jln sket2 lagi kat wisma yakin n chow.
sampai umah dlm 330am camtuh. pnat. nak tdo ni.

pen off.

no reason

u always made me cry. i duno y.

is it because i lef u too much?
or is it because im afraid of losing u?
or is it because i duno y i lef u..

im outta here

bring me to a safer, possibly quiet place to chill..